Tarot Readings

If you happen to live in the Northern NJ, PA or NYC area I am available for 30 minute readings for $10.

I also am open to do parties for $15 for 45 minute readings.

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Sunday Stealing – Last 40 from Bud

We found this gem from a blogger Lady Nina of the blog “Live The Good Life, Fight The Good Fight”. She gives us no idea who she stole it from. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft’s thieves might take some time. That’s it from me. Peace & love!

Cheers to all us thieves!

Sunday Stealing: Last The 40 Questions from Bud

1. My uncle once : died from a head injury involving 70lbs of frozen chicken

2. Never in my life : have I felt so low

3. When I was seventeen : I officially lost my innocence…to be honest it was lost way before that

4. High School was : where my parents met

5. I will never forget : the day my kiddo was born or the day I met her dad and thought to myself wow he is old and dated him anyway

6. I once met : George Lamond and the dude from Face the Nation

7. There’s this girl I know who : gets sexually aroused by toes

8. Once, at a bar : I drank a mojito realized I hated them but drank because the mechanic dude paid for it. It was too strong for me and as we walked back to his car in the middle of February on a cold NYC evening I proceeded to undress because I felt hot…this dude walked behind me picking up all the stuff I threw on the floor., the winter jacket, scarf, hat, gloves.

9. By noon, I’m usually : ready to go home but the whole need to pay bills stops me from leaving work

10. Last night : I had a true blue friend come visit and we had pizza and coolers. She said she felt naked because when I usually invite her over it is usually to help me move.
11. If only I had : money and was not worried about rent this week. I really do like my new apartment

12. Next time I go to gym/church : I go to church I hope I do not burst into flames

13. Susan Boyle : had an amazing voice

14. What worries me most : is not being able to make rent this week even though my landlord left me note today telling me they are waiving the late fee this one time

15. When I turn my head left, I see : my recliner chair, books I rented from the library today, a bra, a picture frame with a picture of kiddo and I at their baptism and an almost empty water bottle.

16. When I turn my head right, I see : I see bookshelf, printer, tarot cards

17. You know I’m lying when : I tell others I don’t need help.

18. What I miss most about the eighties : Being a kid again. I was 5 in 1980…..

19. If I was a character in Shakespeare, I’d be : Macbeth

20. By this time next year : I hope to have my shit together

21. A better name for me would be : flaky

22. I have a hard time understanding : budgets

23. If I ever go back to school, I’ll : study energy work

24. You know I like you if : I talk to you

25. If I ever won an award, the first person I’d thank would be : is my grandparents and mom for always being there for me, my kiddo for giving me purpose, my ex hubby for breaking me and in turn making me stronger for it

26. When I compare 80’s rock to 90’s rock : I realize I like them both

27. Take my advice, never : give up or contemplate prostitution

28. My ideal breakfast is : a mc d’s #1 breakfast combo with orange juice with ice

29. A song I love, but do not own is : Something like this by Coldplay

30. If you visit my hometown, I suggest : you lock your doors and windows and remember to put on your don’t fuck with me face

31. My favorite Beatle is : John Lennon

32. Why won’t people : stop being blind to the disaster that is the POTUS

33. If you spend the night at my house : be prepared to be a little scared by the doors closing on their own, and the amount of times I stop breathing while I sleep

34. I’d stop my wedding for : what I know now

35. The world could do without : twitter, social media and being over connected. Unplug and act like it is 1989

36. I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than : get married again

37. My favorite blonde is : is a blondie brownie

38: Paper clips are more useful than : hair clips in a pinch

39. If I do anything well, it’s : talk to strangers

40. And by the way : I am surprised I have made it this far

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Sunday Stealing- Greenish Questions

We found this gem  from a blogger and blog named Greenish Lady. She states that Becca invited everyone to do it. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft’s thieves might take some time. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

Cheers to all us thieves! 

Sunday Stealing: The Greenish Questions

1. What is your current obsession? House of Cards

2. What’s your go-to coffee place? I only drink coffee at work

3. Who was the last person that you hugged? The kiddo on their birthday about a month ago

4. Do you nap a lot? If I could, I would

5. Tonight, what’s for dinner? Depends on what I can afford

6. What was the last thing that you bought? Scratch off lottery

7. What is your favorite weather? Autumn

8. Tell us something about one blogger who you think will play this week? Not applicable

9. If you were given a free house that was full furnished, where in the world would you like it to be? Out in the middle of a wooded landscape

10. Name three things that you could not live without. Water, food, sex

11. What would you like in your hands right now? Refer to any of the answers in #10

12. What’s one of your guilty pleasures? Driving and reading

13. What would you change or eliminate about yourself? The extra weight

14. As a child, what type of career did you want? Writer

15. What are you missing right now? Money

16. What are you currently reading? The Good House

17. What do you fear the most? Failure

18. What’s the best movie that you’ve seen recently? None….the last movie I saw was Wonder Woman and it was underwhelming

19. What’s your favorite book from the past year? The border child

20. Is there a comfort food from your childhood that you still enjoy? Rice and black beans

Sunday Stealing…Fathers Day edition

We found this gem this meme off a blogger called Sama at Lazy Artist Girl. She doesn’t say from where she stole it. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft’s thieves might take some time. Please consider liking WTIT on Facebook. Click here.

Cheers to all us thieves! 

Sunday Stealing: The Ginormous Questions 

1. Are you single? yes

2. Are your parents still married? to each other? no

3. Are you in love? with the idea of love

4. Do you believe in love at first sight? i believe in lust at first sight

5. Who ended your last relationship? i got ghosted

6. Have you ever been hurt by a break up? yes

7. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? legend has it , yes

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer? not that i know of

9. Prefer love or lust? preferably both within the same person

10. Prefer a few best friends or many regular friends? a few….i dont need a whole crew

11. Wild night out or romantic night in? romantic night in, however recently i realized i could benefit from more wild nights out

12. Back in the day: Been caught sneaking out? no

13. Ever wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? yes

14. Who are/is your best friend(s)? The Beard dude is my best friend but I am not necessarily his

15. Ever wanted to disappear? Lately very often

16. First attraction: Smile or eyes? eyes

17. Prefer intelligence or attraction? both …attraction only lasts for so long…if we cant hold a conversation it will never last

18. Last phone call you received? my friend who i witnessed for today through a tense family issue

19. Last thing you drank? pepsi from taco bell

20. Before your current one, when was your last relationship? it has been so long, i cant even remember

21. Do you and your family get along? most days

22. Would you say you have a “screwed up life”? depends on the day…today might not be the best day to ask me that question

23. Have you ever gotten kicked out somewhere? If yes, do tell. Well a friend wanted to show me a Chinese restaurant they loved. By the end of the meal we were asked to leave. She annoyed them by talking to them in their native language. She was a white girl showboating.

24. Do you trust all your friends? Hahaha….I trust no one

25. Who knows the most about you?  I do. I know all my truths, lies and weaknesses. The friend that knows my most authentic self is the Beard.

42 and counting…

Recently I turned another year older but not much wiser. I seem to keep making the same mistakes over and over. It seems sometimes that I have somehow made progress but then life shows examples that it is just an illusion.

For the last two years money has been tight. I have always struggled as an adult with money and lately it seems I have not mastered it still. I wonder what I keep doing wrong. This year started with a promotion and a 10% raise and somehow it is not enough. I spent a year not paying rent in my old place because of the landlords unwillingness  to fix anything and having to spend a very cold winter. It all came to a head in March/April and they sent me an eviction notice, however the dates were wrong and it was addressed to a mysterious unknown Ms. Robinson( not a joke, ha). It basically made it not legally binding and I lived another month before moving into my new place. I thought the new neighborhood would be worse, because on paper it is, however it has been a pleasant surprise of tranquility.

Today proved to be a watershed moment for me: I had to borrow money from the kiddo, I had to ask my mom for money and my dad also. I found myself without money for food or gas. When all was said and done I felt that in an hour I had aged ten years. This cannot continue to be my reality. From this day forward I refuse.

For the last few years I have struggled with desire. Desire for life, desire for happiness, and desire to be desired. The thing I have learned recently from talking to a friends husband, Redneck, is that you are only as unattractive as you feel, that confidence is sexy and clothes matter, and also due to a poll I took with other various male friends, I am not unattractive just socially inept in certain situations, which makes me hard to read. I recently had my friend, the Beard, over to celebrate my recent birthday and I asked why we never hang with his girl in tow. After some futile denials that she just simply doesn’t like me he admitted that he liked to hang out with the version of me that was not socially awkward. It seems with him my guard is completely down and I am cool to hang with but in mixed company… not so much.

In motherhood I have struggled with feelings of having fucked up royally. My kiddo, which just turned 21, is a good person. My biggest fail is that I coddled too much and protected to the point that they are now struggling with balancing still being a kid and not really being a kid anymore. I am hopeful that will work itself out. I now struggle between being there for them and letting them figure shit out. I give advice when asked but no longer offer solutions. They need to start making decisions.

Within the next year I hope I have made progress in all areas that I have sucked in thus far. I am too old for this shit.

 

 

Boundaries

It has been said, yelled and written by those that know me that I have little to no concept of boundaries. Imagine their surprise when boundaries is one of my 2017 goals. I want to know the literal meaning and what those meanings signify to me and how I feel most comfortable executing it. There has been some resistance from my established social circle, small as it may be.

There are those that think it is about time and wonder what took me so long. Those are also those who resist most when I apply boundaries toward them. They are quick to remind me of all things I have done in the past in regards to not respecting boundaries.

I am most amused most by those that think that it is just a phase and it too shall pass. It could very well be a phase but I am determined to make it a lifestyle.

“Personal boundaries are guidelines, rules or limits that a person creates to identify reasonable, safe and permissible ways for other people to behave towards them and how they will respond when someone passes those limits”, as per the wikipedia definition.

Based on my personal beliefs and experiences my top three boundaries so far are as follows:

-Don’t ask me for help with anything you are not willing to help in the same way.

-I watch not so much what you say but what you do. If you tell me I am like a sister to you and I also see that you speak badly of your own real sister, that is all I need to know to how you will speak of me when I am not around. I will only share with you what I wouldn’t mind others knowing. Golden rule: those that gossip about others will gossip about you.

-My time is just as valuable as yours. Do not treat me like an after thought. Three strikes and  you are out.

This list is a work in progress but I think it worth exploring.

Life update…

It has been a while since I have written here and I miss writing but not so much blogging. Hopefully I can reconcile these two feelings soon and get back to it.

Since my last blog, I have lost another family member. It was rather sudden for me as I am not particularly close with my moms side of the family. I am also the only one from my moms side in the area I live in with the exception of one group, which in the nine years I have been back in NJ I have seen only a handful of times. My cousin was 87 years young, and one of the only last living family of my mom’s elders. I had found out he had had a heart attack because I had called his son, which is my age, to wish him a happy birthday. He couldn’t talk because his dad was in the hospital. After work I rushed to the hospital and went  every two days to see him and comfort my extended family. Unfortunately two weeks almost to the day he had the heart attack he chose to die instead of being kept alive through machines. He died on his own terms and

in his mind with dignity. His immediate family watched painfully as he struggled for his last breath. He happened to die holy week so he was put on ice and buried almost a week to the day he actually died. He was a great guy…funny, a great cook and with a remarkable memory. He is missed by all that knew and loved him.

In January I got promoted and have stumbled a bit with others accepting it and me adjusting to my new role in the grand scheme of the team. It has been hard balancing my new duties, others expectations of what that looks like and my ability to transition gracefully. I have always been a good worker but have struggled with the social politics and I guess that it is why it has taken so long in my career to get the recognition.

I have been struggling since December with rent and the idea that the new landlords refuse to fix a thing. So I have lived in an apartment with no heat in the winter, buckling walls, water damaged walls where the window is, outlets not working and I have had to get creative with plumbing solutions. In light of all these issues I stopped paying rent. I had sent a notice indicating I would move by April 1st but that fell through. They followed up with an eviction notice but had a back date that did not match the dates in the body of the letter and despite having my name at the top of letter it was technically addressed to a Ms. Robinson, no joke. I accelerated my search, contemplated going above my price range but luckily found a place within budget and in a neighboring town. The town is not my first choice but it is not bad. I suspect it has to do with the proximity to my hometown and so it feels like I am going backwards instead of forward. In reality I think it is definitely an upgrade from my most recent apartment even if the new neighborhood is not as aesthetically pleasing. The moving of the heavy stuff today was tiresome even though to be fair I barely picked  up a piece of furniture. I guess all the stress of getting it done/coordinated has finally caught up with me because I feel like I moved all the stuff myself by myself. I am just glad it is over.

Spiritually I have grown in leaps and bounds. I feel so connected to spirit and also sometimes at the most inconvenient times, ha! I admit it scares me a little bit but I embrace and am willing to confront it and not cower in fear of something I don’t completely understand quite yet.

On the health front things have also been stressful and there have been a lot of close calls but luckily so far so good.