10 things I am happy about..

Trying to get to a more positive outlook. I saw this on another blog. I thought I would give it a try.

1. Kiddo. The best thing to ever happen to me and the best 21st birthday gift.

2. Stable employment. I don’t always like my job but I admit it is a great place to work most days. The benefits outweigh the cons.

3.Making it to 40. With all the health issues I have and the meds I have to take for them I am happy that nothing “major” has happened.

4. A great birthday week for kiddo and myself. Our birthdays are one day apart.

5. My helicopter mom. It can be annoying at 40 but I appreciate she cares.

6. My siblings. If I had been an only child I would be weirder than I am.

7. Privacy. I value my privacy and keep people at a distance. It can be lonely though.

8. A summer of opportunities and unknowns.

9. My meetup groups helping me get out and socialize. It can be hard to go out when all your friends have small children.

10. My grandparents(both sets).

So it begins…

This week is the official start of my and kiddos birthday week and the countdown to graduation. I turn 40 where they turn the tender age of 19. I wonder often where the time has gone. One minute your pregnant, then 24 hours of labor to a 9lb baby and then poof they are graduating high school and off to college 4 hours away. I am so proud of the person they have become. I will miss the day to day interactions, the fighting and the eventual laughing.

It is the dawn of not just a new decade in my life but also a new chapter. I think the change will hit me most once school starts again around me and there will be no need to make visits to pick up school supplies, new clothes for the school year or the back to school event where the parents spend seven minutes in each class period learning about the teacher and such. I am used to the kiddo going away for the summer but they always return by September and short of living with the other parent being unbearable they will not be back, at least not full-time.

I pray they find happiness where they are going and success in whatever they ultimately choose to study in college. I pray they find their voice and learn to use it when they have to. I pray they gain a sense of self that will help them find the independence they so yearn for. I pray that the first true life decision they have made works out for the best for them. They didn’t choose to move away from FL and they never really found their footing here in NJ so I hope in deciding to move to MD proves more beneficial.

Letting go is hard. I struggle with it silently, most days. I do not want to add to their apprehension of the unknown path they are going on. Does it get easier? How do you truly let go? I am freaked out by not having a say in the matter. Maybe my nervousness is more about my control issues than anything else? I am sure partly yes and no. I guess I have to have faith that all the years we have spent together have prepared them for what lies ahead, whatever that is.

Would you rather…Sunday Stealing…

Would You Rather Meme, part one

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Would You Rather Meme, part one

Stolen from: Sign Up Genius

  • Would you rather go into the past and meet your ancestors or go into the future and meet your great-great grandchildren? I would hate to have to choose. I wish I could do both. I am so curious of where I come from and I think I would be equally curious of where my family goes.
  • Would you rather have more time or more money? More time, once it is gone you can never get it back. Money is necessary but if you lose it you can always get more at a later time.
  • Would you rather have a rewind button or a pause button on your life? Rewind button. I would like to go back and make different choices.
  • Would you rather be able to talk with the animals or speak all foreign languages? Speak all foreign languages. It will come in handy in finding work and with world travel.
  • Would you rather win the lottery or live twice as long? Win the lottery. Life after some time gets tedious. I do not want to live past the time where I end up becoming a burden to others.
  • Would you feel worse if no one showed up to your wedding or to your funeral? Wedding. At my funeral I will be dead. What do I care who goes or does not?
  • Would you rather be without internet for a week, or without your phone? Phone. I am tired of constantly being accessible. I miss the days that my mobile phone was a pay phone.
  • Would you rather meet George Washington, or the current President? George Washington. I would like to understand the mindset at the onset of our country.
  • Would you rather lose your vision or your hearing? Hearing. I love seeing the scenery around me. Maybe the silence might help me appreciate my surroundings more.
  • Would you rather work more hours per day, but fewer days or work fewer hours per day, but more days? More hours and less days. I would love to have Fridays off.
  • Would you rather listen to music from the 70’s or music from today? Neither. I enjoy the music of the 80’s most.
  • Would you rather become someone else or just stay you? Just stay me. Life is too complicated as is.
  • Would you rather be Batman or Spiderman? Spiderman.
  • Would you rather be stuck on a broken ski lift or in a broken elevator? Broken elevator.
  • For your birthday, would you rather receive cash or gifts? Neither. I would just like those closest to me to acknowledge it.

Life update…

As my pattern lately I ignore the blog and then come back, apologize and do it again. Wash, rinse, repeat. Life gets in the way, shit happens.

Lately I have been in the prepping stage of a lot of upcoming transitions. In less than a month I will live alone, really alone for the very first time in my life. It has me wondering what the heck is next? How do I adjust to these life altering changes? What do I really want from my life? Where do I move to now that school systems are no longer a deciding factor? This empty nesting business makes me nervous. I don’t like having so many unknowns on the horizon.

One decision that I have made kind of final? I left school. I know somewhere down the road I will regret it and even do now to some extent as I write this. But I realized it wasn’t school in itself that was making me get cold feet. It was my motivation for being in school. I came to the conclusion that I was in school like some go to church on Sunday, tradition. A long time ago I agreed that it was what I was suppose to do. A check off list things I was suppose to do and in reality no true idea of what to do with said degree. It is no surprise I was not doing well as a result. If I should go back to school it will be of my own decision and with a set purpose/goal in mind.

In regards to work I am taking it one day at a time.I have registered for a class to help with my certification. My goal is to pass the test and then go from there and keep my job for as long I need it.

Life is changing and I just hope I am up to what the changes mean.

Swiped…Sunday Stealing

Swiped

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Swiped Meme

Stolen from: Get It All Down

Do you need to write down things to remember them?

Sometimes.
I can remember things from the past more than the things that I need to do in the present.
Do you keep a diary/journal?
Yes! With this here blog and my handwritten journal. I write my thoughts and some story ideas.
Are you scared of thunderstorms?
No except when I have to drive in them. The sound of the storm relaxes me.
Do you have any unusual fears or phobias?
I fear dying and apartment inspections. I have a phobia in regards to sharing drinking cups. If you drink out of a cup you can be assured your drink is safe with me.
Whats your favourite Disney movie?
Beauty and the Beast. It seems to be theme to my dating life.
Have you ever painted a house?
Absolutely not.
Whats the tallest tree you’ve ever climbed?
I don’t climb
Do you always wear identical socks?
No. Rarely do I wear identical socks
Do you live by any motto or philosophy?
Have wheels, will travel
“When someone reveals themselves believe them”
Do you lick the yogurt or dessert lid?
Yes
Do you lick the spoon clean after making something sweet?
Only cake mix
Have you ever played the bongos?
No
Have you ever handled a snake?
Yes. My first assignment while interning with a local newspaper was to interview a guy with a mobile bug show. He loved all things creepy and crawly and one of them happened to be a snake.
Have you ever assembled furniture by yourself?
Yes and not by choice. I prefer to direct those duties to others.
When did you last go to the beach?
Two years ago. Last time I went a little kid ran up to me  and asked what was I.
When if ever did you last go to London?
2002. My grandparents sent me as a college graduation trip. I toured Spain and London.
What do you do to cool down when its hot?
Cold shower and crank the air conditioner
What’s the most unusual thing you’ve ever eaten?
Not so much unusual but something I find disgusting, goat.
Do you have a favorite mug?
My nanowrimo mug
Do you know any self-defense or martial arts?
No but in a pinch a kick to the groin. It works for male or female attackers.
Who’s your favourite movie action hero?
Ironman. I like his sense of humor
Have you ever ridden a motorcycle?
Yes. At my first job there was a guy who every week gave people a ride around campus. When it was my turn I screamed in fear with my inside voice and was soo happy when it was over. Never.Again.
Do you collect anything?
Disappointment
Is there anything you wished would come back into fashion?
Scrunchies and tape players. Scrunchies were/are so durable.
Back in the day my older sister and I would make our own tapes from music we recorded from the radio. We had it down to a science and for the most part edited out all the commercials.
Do you stick to conventional fashions or like to try and be original?
I am not a fashion forward or trendy person. I like clothes that can transcend passing fads and that are practical If it is not comfortable I think twice before wearing it.
Have you ever given someone a handmade present?
My mom. For mothers day or her birthday I would make a homemade card.

Sunday Stealing….Lots of Questions…

Very Much Questions Meme

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Very Much Questions Meme

Stolen from: Lots of Questions

1. What was the last clothing item that you bought? 

T-shirts and butter jeans

 2. If you could stay one age forever, what age would you choose? 
30. You are not too young or old, but old enough to know better.

3. When you say “lol”, are you really laughing? 
Amused more than laughing

4. What is the most interesting thing you’ve done in the past year? 
I visited Chicago

5. If you started a business, what would it be? 
A bookstore

6. Do your friends/family/coworkers know about your blog? 
I hope not. I have never mentioned it. I even use a different name than my own.

7. How long does it take you to write an average blog post? 
45 minutes if I come to the computer with an idea in mind.

8. How do you keep up with the blogs you follow? 
Read my reader feed.

9. What is your bedtime? 
Varies. Sleep is not something I do well. The night terrors get in the way.

10. Introvert or extrovert? 
Somewhere in between. I am more selectively social. No one that knows me well would describe me as shy per say. I will talk to anyone but I can be a little reserved depending on the situation.

11. What is your biggest wish?
Good health, happiness and success for kiddo and myself.

12. What is the best job you ever had? 
A temp job for a medical supply company.

13. Dog person/cat person/both/neither? 
Neither but if I had to choose, I would pick in order of preference cat first(the low maintenace) and then dog.

14. If you had $1,000 to spend any way you wanted, what would you do with it? 
Put it in the bank

15. How do you “dress” your toast? 
Butter or cream cheese

16. How do you feel about snow? 
Love to look at it from my window and postcards. Hate having to shovel it.

17. What was the worst job you ever had? 
At a NYC college. The dynamics was toxic.

18. What song can you not stop listening to? 
I see fire by Ed Sheeran

19. Love your name or hate it? 
My blog name? Love. My official name? I’ve had 40 years to get used to it.

20. How did you choose your blog/twitter handle?
I just like the name Sarah and I like how it sounds with Silly. If I were to ever have another daughter I would definitely name her Sarah.

Random Meme

RaNdOm Meme

Welcome back to Sunday Stealing which originated on WTIT: The Blog authored by Bud Weiser. Here we will steal all types of memes from every corner of the blogosphere. Our promise to you is that we will work hard to find the most interesting and intelligent memes. You may have heard the expression, “honor amongst thieves”. In that age-old tradition, we try to credit the blog that we stole it from. We also provide a link to the victim’s meme in our “Previous Victims” widget. (It’s our way of saying “Thanks!”) Sometimes we edit the original meme, to make it more relevant to our global players, to challenge our players, to select the best questions, or simply to make it less repetitive from this new meme or recently asked questions from a previously featured meme.
Cheers to all of us thieves!!! 

RaNdOm Meme

Stolen from: Lots of Questions

1. If you were to attend a costume party tonight, what or whom would you go as? 

I would go as wonder woman

2. What are your choice of toppings on a hamburger? 
Cheese

3. You are chosen to have lunch with the President. The condition is you only get to ask one question. What do you ask? 
Is the feeling of power worth all the drama and stress that comes along with the job?

4. It’s your first day of vacation, what are you doing? 
Sleeping

5. What is your concession stand must-have at the movies? 
Popcorn and soda

6. Which do you dislike most: pop-up ads or spam email? 
Equally dislike

7. What do you think Captain Hook’s name was before he had a hook for a hand? 
Gary

8. Rock, paper, or scissors? 
Paper. I need something to write down my thoughts.

9. Let’s say a brick fell on your foot, and your kid is standing right next to you, what is your ‘cleaned up’ swear word? 
Fuddruckers

10. Which is worse, being in a place that is too loud, or too quiet? 
Too quiet

11. What is one quality that you really appreciate in a person? 
Loyalty

12. At the good old general store, what particular kind of candy would you expect to be in the big jar at the counter? 
M&M

13. What is the most distinguishing landmark in your city? 
The football field

14. Everyone hears discussions that they consider boring. What topic can put you to sleep quicker than any other? 
How their music is the best and others suck. It bores me  hearing others music shame someone.

15. How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test? 
Twice. The written part just once but the driving test twice. The first driving test I got failed because I turned the car on before getting “permission”.

16. If you had to have the same topping on your vanilla ice cream for the rest of your life, what topping would you choose? 
Wet nuts and rainbow sprinkles

17. What food item would need to be removed from the market altogether in order for you to live a healthier, longer life? 
Cream cheese

18. You are offered an envelope that you know contains $50. You are then told that you may either keep it or exchange it for another envelope that may contain $500 or may be empty. Do you keep the first envelope, or do you take your chances with the second? 
Keep the envelope for the $50

19. If you had to choose, which would you give up: cable TV, or DSL/cable internet? 
DSL

20. What is your highest level of education? 
Associates degree

21. How much is a gallon of gas in your city? What was the highest it’s been? 
2.45 regular

22. What kind of lunch box did you have as a kid? 
Smurfs

23. What would you rather have, a nanny, a housekeeper, a cook, or a chauffeur? 
Housekeeper. I hate cleaning, however it is a necessary evil.